State

My obsession is for someone else

It’s for that entity I haven’t found

There are no resources

There is no stillness

Stressing limbs

Dry mouth

I cannot pursuit what I cannot see

My eyes are blinded by your sent

Or that daydream I just created

My senses are shouted down

When reality is done for

They are taking me as their possession  

I struggle against lust

I fight against desire

I get a glimpse of reality

And again I’m taken over

Red

Dark red consumes me

Like a heavy substance

Maroon, purple

The dark side isn’t visible but felt

It’s white; in the inside it engulfs me  

It bruises me

Now it’s physical

(January 11, 2014)

FPSA